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[enblightened]

I have made my warning to a handful of you before, but there are many that I've yet to meet. And so, this is primarily to those who do not know me.

I am something to be wary of. 'Tis not meant as a threat, but a matter of what I am. Call it what you shall, be it a curse or condition, but the brand on my head is not for display only. Many would call me an abomination where I am from, and it is not far from the truth.

I fight back the instincts of a demon inside of me. I hold it back by whatever means I am able, with my will and the bonds I take with me. With years of practice, I am typically able to hold it back, but there can never be a promise of my willpower. If there comes a time in which this beast emerges and I transform, I do not expect mercy on my behalf.

I understand that there are some with a similar situation as myself, or that you have experienced enough horrors to be prepared for it. Making demands of a person is impossible, I know that, but I want to be clear that I am a thing to be careful with.

...Thank you for listening. Be well, friends and strangers alike.

Comments

[enblightened]

Compassion is too rare where I am from. Stilted, in the crawling darkness. Perhaps I am the one that needs to readjust my thinking now that I am here.

I would indeed. Too long it's been since I've heard such music. I had a companion both talented and cruel with his lute, but I've not heard anything more in years.

[danserai]

Oh, then you might like this one.

It is Tchaikovsky's Waltz of the Flowers.

[enblightened]

Ah-- I did not realize that these devices were capable of also playing music. I was flummoxed momentarily...

I've never heard this before. Perhaps I missed it in my decades gone from the world? How beautiful.

[danserai]

Maybe. They're really famous, I think.

[ she's not sure, but ballet is the center of her world and basically the only subject she knows well. ]

You can probably find a lot more you enjoy.

[enblightened]

I would gladly cherish anything you suggest. What others have you to offer?

[danserai]

Oh, ummm Tchaikovsky also did Swan Lake and Sleeping Beauty . . . Then there's Romeo and Juliet, Coppelia, Giselle . . .

The stories can be a bit sad, but the music is always nice.

[enblightened]

Bittersweet encourages us to enjoy the what silver lining we find in our own lives. I don't dislike such things necessarily.

Thank you, Ahiru. Perhaps this night I will sleep restfully.

[danserai]

[ bittersweet . . . she wonders about that. princess tutu . . . tragic or bittersweet? and she couldn't even be fully honest with anyone.

but ahiru puts it aside for now. ]

Mmm, I hope it helps and you feel better.

[enblightened]

It does already.

[danserai]

If I find more, I'll send them your way.

[enblightened]

Thank you.

Perhaps you see no reason for it, but might there be something I may do in return?

[danserai]

Uhm, I can't think of anything right now . . .

But if you have any ideas, I'm happy to hear them!

[enblightened]

I fear there are very few useful skills I've left, but I will consider what few options I have.

Tell me what you enjoy, if I may request such a thing.

[danserai]

Well, I like dancing? I'm a ballet student, even if I'm not very good at it.

Maybe you could find a nice place to practice? I don't want to lose my progress even if Mr. Cat isn't here to yell at me and drop me to the probationary class . . .

[enblightened]

I've no doubt that there are other performers that would like a space dedicated to their craft.

Though I can hardly promise it, I will let you know if I find someplace ideal.

[danserai]

I don't know if there are any others and there's no pressure! I can probably just find a nice room and that should be fine too . . .

[enblightened]

Never underestimate what other artists there are.

I will tell you if I see something.

[danserai]

Thank you.