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deernet2022-03-09 04:21 pm
snakesdonthavelegs) wrote in deernet2022-03-09 04:21 pm
text | un: jessie☆sama ; misfire
RUBY
RUBY HELP ヽ(°〇°)ﾉ
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
ive been listening to all these pop songs from korea
ive gotten really into it actually they're super good (.❛ ᴗ ❛.)
anyway ive started watching the music videos too and
for some reason when i watched a few of the girl groups
i felt all warm and tingly and couldnt stop thinking about how pretty and cool they all were
and a lot of other stuff
AM I LEBSAIN??? w(ﾟДﾟ)w
RUBY HELP ヽ(°〇°)ﾉ
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
ive been listening to all these pop songs from korea
ive gotten really into it actually they're super good (.❛ ᴗ ❛.)
anyway ive started watching the music videos too and
for some reason when i watched a few of the girl groups
i felt all warm and tingly and couldnt stop thinking about how pretty and cool they all were
and a lot of other stuff
AM I LEBSAIN??? w(ﾟДﾟ)w
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Don't worry, I won't judge you for having your big revelation in public like this.
Could use a little fun popcorn drama.
There's worse awakenings, you know. At least these are real people.
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people are going to judge me now
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No one's gonna judge you. This is, like, the most gay-friendly place I've ever lived in.
Anyone does judge you, they'll get their asses kicked faster than they can tell everyone what they think god hates.
cw: minor internalized biphobia
it seems so weird to think of this as normal
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[audible knuckle crack. if oscar wants to call her a big sister then she might as well start acting like one.]
Well, it is normal, I know that much. No matter where you're hearing the opposite from. Parents or religion or whatever.
We can't help who we're attracted to. Not a damn one of us.
And anyone who makes you feel ashamed for that doesn't have your best interests at heart.
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if not, that would be ungrateful to my family
they'd hate it no matter what, though, i'm sure
but i never wanted to be their perfect little princess
i guess they're not here anyway
[ But thinking of that hurts even more. ]
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If they're ready to arrange a marriage, they're not gonna let anything fuck with that plan.
They're not here, though. You can explore this stuff on your own, you know?
You got time, and you got a ton of people around here who can help you get used to stuff.
If you know Rubes, you probably know Ange, too, and I know Oscar's got some thoughts on this stuff. It's a solid support network.
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i dunno if she ever mentioned me but my name is jessica (ง ื▿ ื)ว
it sounds like a lot of people here are gay!
but i dunno if it'll even matter because i like boys
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We talked about her brother but never any cousins, but I guess we never really talked MUCH about her brother.
Nice meeting you. Call me Anna.
You know, it's possible to like both.
Called being bi. Or pan. It depends, it's complicated and I still don't totally get the difference, but the people who are those things do and that's what matters.
Or you could just decide that this video was a one-time thing.
It's all up to you and not a single other person on the planet.
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i guess you're right
its not like im making some kind of decision
it shouldnt be about anybody but me
but its hard to shake thinking about what other people would say about me
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But nobody else's opinions matter but your own when it comes to stuff like this.
Like, when I figured out I was gay, I basically threw my parents the double deuce and peaced out of their lives for good because they were never gonna accept me for who I am.
It was hard, but it was the right thing to do.
I think you're gonna have a much easier time than I did if that's what ends up being true for you here.
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it doesn't really matter here
since my family's just gone except for ange-chan
[ And... they'll be gone in her world too, probably. ]
so i have a fresh start
for everything
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[it feels like there's more going on here, but this is the first time she's ever spoken to jessica and it feels like a massive overstep to start suggesting anything else. but she can kind of guess at one of the things that jess isn't talking about. nobody talks about being alone that much if they don't miss someone, no matter how bad they might have been treated by them. source: ...well.]
Good news if you're into the whole idea of found family, at least.
You'll definitely run into people like that around here.
I give it a month before Oscar tries to adopt you.
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haha he seems really nice
i could definitely use some of that
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A little eager.
I'm, like, 30 and he still tried to make me his big sister. Which, hoo boy, no accounting for taste, I guess.
You tight with Ange?
She's got a good head on her shoulders.
You could pick worse people to be related to.
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i'm so happy to have her as family
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She's a pretty good person. She's helped me through a lot.
She could probably help you through this, too. You know, if you want someone who's not a total stranger on the internet.
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i hope i can be a person thats that well respected
i'll have a lot to talk with her about
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First time I showed my face on a network post, I was dolled up in a maid outfit.
That wasn't HERE, but it was just about as mortifying.
And now people. Respect? Me. I'm pretty sure they do. Pretty sure that's the emotion they feel.
What I'm saying is this is a solid first step.
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one of them is here in fact
but i think of her more as my bff (´▽`)
i'm glad she's doing more than just that dumb job here
but mannnn thatd be so embarrassing
i think i'd respect you anyway though
you're so smart!
you must really have it together
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I'm doing all right, though. Had a lot of time to get adjusted to this place.
Been here since the first squidfall and don't think I'm gonna head anywhere anytime soon.
Glad you came with even more people from around here. Especially your BFF.
Rebuilding from scratch ain't easy. Always good to have someone there to build off.
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i just really wanna be there for her now that we're both here
i owe so much to her
but she had a really hard time in our life before
and because of my position, i could never be the friend i should have been
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She got a name? You seem chill, minus the gay panic.
She's probably chill too.
Besides, maybe I've run into her already.
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she goes by Shannon here
she's a bit shy but she's really sweet
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I was fine calling you Jessie-sama.
Thanks for sharing. I'll keep an eye out for her.
Just not all the time 'cause I only have the one. P)
That was, like, an eyepatch. But a smiling face.
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