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deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am
imaglyphwitch) wrote in deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am
Video UN: glyphywitchy [Back dated to May 12]
[It's been a few days since dying, and Luz had unfortunately kept this to herself. If you haven't been able to tell, this girl has been having a pretty rough month, and it didn't seem to be getting better. She lurched her device to focus, and, though coughing, was looking directly into the camera].
So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.
Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?
[Action]
Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.
Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.
Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?
[Action]
Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.
Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
(CW: drug addiction/rehab)
[it was torture. she was afraid that Rue would accidentally take too much of the wrong thing and then what? the best case scenario was she'd be sent back to rehab and she didn't want to think about the worst case scenario. but talking about it, even a little? it helped]
Yes! Yes, that's it exactly! I'm kinda skinny, so I'll never be able to hit as hard as everyone else, but I can try to be faster.
A few months ago, I kind of stumbled into Evil Jude Law? He was being really weird and kinda threatening, so I might have...sent him into the halls of my high school by accident.
Re: (CW: drug addiction/rehab)
[She honestly wanted to make it her mission to make sure that Lexi's life at least got a little bit easier. She probably was hoping her friends back home were OK, and should at least be spending some of that time caring about her own self].
Evil...Jude Law? What movie?
CW: drug addiction/rehab)
[and she tried to keep most of her issues hidden. but they felt far easier to talk to with Luz than anyone else. even the heavy stuff]
I don't think it's from a movie. It's a guy who happens to look like Jude Law and he seems evil. It's creepy.
Re: CW: drug addiction/rehab)
[Luz wouldn't try to judge Lexi's situation. No one should: it sounded pretty hard].
So just a creepy Jude Law? Good grief! Did he try to do anything to you?
CW: drug addiction/rehab)
[Lexi was a bystander. Cassie had gotten that much right in the portals. but she wasn't quite sure about moving from a bystander in life to an active participant]
No, no, he seemed like he wanted to, but I managed to do the whole reality-warping thing. I made him think he was in the locker halls in my high school. [a brief, bitter laugh] They have to be good for something, right?
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[Luz might try to nudge her into caring a little more, but she wouldn't push anything, After all, you really did have to do things at your own pace].
Oh, good job! Now, how exactly did that whole thing happen anyway?
[So they could avoid it happening to her again].
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[it probably started in 9th grade, when Rue kind of fell apart and Lexi had no other friends to fall back on. at least not friends who hadn't been her sister's first]
I just...kinda panicked? And thought of the worst place I could think of. Which, turned out to be my high school! Funny, right?
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[Luz was pretty sure that she could help Lexi avoid something like that again].
I mean. If I had to think of a place I wouldn't want to be, it might be the same thing. I didn't exactly start out great in my high school, and I haven't really been back since I stumbled into the Boiling Isles.
(CW: alcoholism, death)
[Lexi was hoping so. she knew that without full control of her powers, she was kind of a sitting duck. she knew she was getting better at physical self-defense, but was in no real position to fight anyone who knew how]
God, what is it about high school which makes it suck so much? Is it the moldy smell in the gym locker room? Is it the condescending teachers? Is it the lousy food? [a pause] Frankly, my money is on the food.
Re: (CW: alcoholism, death)
[Luz had no intention of letting anything bad befall Lexi if she could possibly help it. If she had to stick close to protect her until she came into her own, Luz was prepared to do that. It was something that Fern would have done for Varian, she was sure].
I'd say it's a bit of all of it. You also forgot the bullying social dynamics and the peer pressure, but those go without saying.
(CW: alcoholism, death)
[she's slowly getting there. she keeps looking around, seeing kids adapting better than she is and that's a little embarrassing]
Yeah, they kinda do. And the jocks. Though, they probably fall under both categories, the bullying social dynamics and the peer pressure. At least they did at East Highland.
Re: (CW: alcoholism, death)
[Not exactly a glowing review, but there you are.
Kids all have different situations! Luz wouldn't have said one was necessarily better than someone else]!
That's probably the case for a lot of us. If you're in the hierarchy and accept normal as default, then you fit fine. If you don't, well. You just sort of drift around until you hopefully find a way to make your own band of weirdoes?
Re: (CW: alcoholism, death)
[not dumb. definitely not dumb]
Yeah, I never really went along with the cool crowd, even though in the summer before Freshman year, I kinda wanted to. But I quickly realized that I can be the one of the guys friend or the silently appreciative friend, but not the cool friend.
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[Self-deprecating too, but that was a story for another time].
Cool is in the eye of the beholder. I would make the case that you are my unique, super smart friend, and as far as I'm concerned, that makes you pretty cool to me.
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[so was she, so they're doomed. or fated. could be either?]
Well...thank you. I think I'm going to remember that every time I have a horrible flashback from high school.
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[Besides, what did she care what people on Earth thought? She wasn't there, she was HERE, with someone who was way better than all of them.
Either or both]!
Just imagine me doing a funny chicken dance whenever you have those flashbacks. Maybe that will help.
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[if Luz meant that Lexi was better, she'd blush so hard, she might catch fire]
Well, I need to see the funny chicken dance first. [and she grins broadly]
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[She absolutely meant Lexi]!
All right, but I only because you specifically requested it!
[Luz, having shame at being a dorky cornball and doing an impromptu chicken dance? You clearly have her confused with someone else. She proceeds to do just that, and to be extra Luz? She finishes with a wink at the end].
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[blushblushblush]
Let's see it!
[and she happens to like dorky cornballs. and she blushes at the wink] Very nice! I've never seen a chicken dance in person before!
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[Unless they're nerding and have a difference of opinion where Luz will absolutely back her own claims!
Once she was done, she stuck out her tongue and gave a little pose].
Your wish is my command, m'lady!
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[she doesn't think it's terribly likely, at least not so far.
and Lexi claps enthusiastically]
Very good! Five stars and ten points out of ten!
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[Luz would certainly give her the benefit of the doubt. She trusted Lexi to speak with integrity].
Thank you, thank you! I've never been complimented much on my chicken dancing skills, but I'm glad it made you laugh!
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[even though back home ran on lies, lies of every kind and about every subject imaginable]
What, it's cute! And you're brave, to do something like that in front of a virtual stranger.
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[Luz was hoping they wouldn't have that problem. Fibs were one thing, lies were another].
What can I say, I'm impulsive! And hopefully we won't stay strangers, right?
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[she's not one for lies. not really. but she wants to be as honest as she can here]
We won't. I already know that.
hahaha "friends"
LOL, girlfriends~~
YUUUSSSS
😁
I'll bet you can't, Luz.