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[klawful]

HELLO FELLOW SLEEPERS. I WOULD LIKE TO PUBLICALLY OFFER MY SINCERE CONDOLENCES FOR THE TRICKSTER VIRUS I IMPLEMENTED LAST MONTH. A THEORY OF MINE GOT OUT OF HAND AND PEOPLE HAD TO SUFFER FOR IT WHICH IS 100% MY BAD. I AM SUPPOSED TO BE A GOOD LEADER AND INSTEAD, I FAILED YOU ALL. AS PER FUCKING USUAL.

(Karkat. Holy shit. No one thinks you're their leader. Again.)

PAST ME IS ARGUABLY THE MOST WORTHLESS, IDIOTIC TROLL TO HAVE EVER EXISTED IN ANY TIMELINE OR REALITY. TRULY, HE PROBABLY HUFFS CEILING CHIPS TO PUT TOGETHER BASIC SOLUTIONS. THAT GUY IS SUCH AN INSUFFERABLE PIECE OF SHIT SO I FULLY SUPPORT YOUR (PLATONIC) HATRED OF HIM. HE'S AN ASSHOLE.

TO BE HONEST, I WOULD SUPPORT YOUR HATRED OF CURRENT ME TOO. YOUR FEELINGS OF HATE ARE COMPLETELY APPROPRIATE GIVEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES OF ME ROYALLY FUCKING SHIT UP FOR SOME PEOPLE. AGAIN, MY BAD.

I WOULDN'T EVEN JUDGE YOU FOR HATING FUTURE ME EITHER.


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ANYWAY. NOW I HAVE TO EXTRAPOLATE A VERY CRUCIAL POINT: IF YOU CLICK ON A LINK SOME RANDO SENT YOU ON THE INTERNET, YOU ARE A FUCKING MORON. YOU ARE THE DOWNFALL OF YOUR OWN SPECIES AND YOU SHOULD ABSOLUTELY FEEL LIKE THE BIGGEST IDIOT IN IDIOTSVILLE. CONGRATULATIONS, DICKBAG, I HAVE CRAFTED A DUNCE CROWN SPECIFICALLY FOR YOU. YOU ARE NOW THE MAYOR OF MORONS. DOES IT FEEL SPECIAL TO BE SO STUPID? DO YOU FEEL CONTENT IN YOUR ABYSMAL DEN OF DERELICT THINK FUNCTIONS?

I BET YOU DO, YOU GODDAMN PROTOZOIC ORGANISM. YOU HAVE OFFICIALLY BEEN MOTHERFUCKING PWNED BY THE MOST BASIC VIRUS SPREAD EVER AND IF YOU ARE EMBARRASSED, I WANT TO OFFER YOU A FIRM CLAP ON THE SHOULDER. YOU SHOULD FEEL EMBARRASSED.

BITCH.

(--Yeah, okay. Just ignore him. As he said, he gives you full permission to hate current and future him too. Starting now.)

Comments

[the_obedient_servant]

I would tell you that only you have the power to remedy your character flaws and that admitting to it ultimately doesn't achieve much but...

I'd be a bit of a hypocrite. At least I admit to it, though.

By force or just by impulse though?

[klawful]

SOME OF US ARE BEYOND REPAIR PROBABLY. HALF OF IT IS UPBRINGING.

GREAT. WE BOTH OPENLY HATE OURSELVES. WE ARE OFF TO A GREAT START ON THE SELF-IMPROVEMENT TRAIN.

MOSTLY IMPULSE. I'M A TROLL. WE FEEL EMOTIONS DIFFERENTLY AND IT CAN BE INTENSE AS FUCK SOMETIMES. MOST OF US ARE NATURALLY AGGRESSIVE DUE TO OUR STUPID BLOOD-THIRSTY SOCIETY. IF YOU'RE A SOFTIE THEN YOU WILL PROBABLY GET THE SHIT CULLED OUT OF YOU.

[the_obedient_servant]

Exactly, we're making leaps and bounds already. =)

Wouldn't unloading all your emotional issues onto others be providing them a weakness to exploit? I suppose that makes sense, though. The creatures that I lived with were quite literally made primarilly of emotion, so it's not an unfamiliar situation for me.

[Unlike them, they never overshare.

* You remember a joke about a kid who slept in the soil.]

[klawful]

THERE MIGHT JUST BE HOPE YET. TOO BAD I EAT HOPE FOR BREAKFAST EVERY EVENING.

DEPENDS ON THE INDIVIDUAL AND THE EMOTION. IT IS UNHEALTHY TO HOLD BACK INTENSE EMOTIONS. IF SOMEONE MAKES YOU MAD, THEN THEY SHOULD KNOW THEY MADE YOU MAD. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOME POSSIBILITY OF PEOPLE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF YOUR EMOTIONS, BUT THAT HAPPENS REGARDLESS OF HOW PRIVATE YOU KEEP THEM. IF PEOPLE WANT TO EXPLOIT YOU, THEY WILL FIGURE OUT A WAY.

I ALWAYS FIGURE IT IS HEALTHIER TO JUST BE YOURSELF AND LEARN TO PROTECT YOURSELF AGAINST THAT EXPLOITATION.

WHAT KIND OF CREATURES DID YOU LIVE WITH?

(He has met very few people here who have known creatures beyond humans on a regular day-to-day basis. He is instantly fascinated.)

[the_obedient_servant]

I see. That tactic hasn't exactly worked for me in the past but I do see the logic behind it, so I can't say I necessarily disagree. Learning ways to protect yourself is the key ingredient, I imagine. [They are SO mentally healthy and normal.]

They're called Monsters. They come in all shapes and sizes because their bodies are made of magic and emotion. They're particularly weak to cruelty and malicious intent, so if something strikes at them with the intention to hurt, they'll die quickly, especially if they trusted the killer in question.

They are more explosive in their feelings than your average human, as it tends to manifest as magic externally. It's how they express themselves.

[klawful]

YEAH, IT CAN BE A DANGEROUS LOGIC TO GO AFTER. I HAVE BEEN FUCKED UP BY IT ROUGHLY LIKE A THOUSAND TIMES. LITERALLY. SO MANY DOOMED TIMELINES, YOU DON'T EVEN *KNOW*. MY STUPIDITY IS INFINITE.

AND, IF WE ARE BEING VULNERABLE HERE, I DO NOT BELIEVE THERE IS ANY WAY TO TRULY AND FULLY PROTECT ONE'S SELF.

THAT IS ACTUALLY KIND OF A TRAGIC EXISTENCE. I PITY THESE MONSTERS OF YOURS. OUR KIND TENDS TO GET STRONGER BECAUSE OUR EMOTIONS CHALLENGE US TO BETTER OURSELVES, BUT MANY TROLLS FALL TO THEIR FAILURE BECAUSE THEY NEVER LEARN HOW TO PROPERLY HONE THEMSELVES.

EMOTIONALLY DRIVEN CREATURES ARE FLAWED AS SHIT, I GUESS. SO YOU SAID YOU LIVED WITH THESE MONSTERS WHICH IMPLIES YOU ARE NOT ALSO A MONSTER? WHAT ARE YOU THEN?