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Luz Noceda ([personal profile] imaglyphwitch) wrote in [community profile] deernet2022-05-19 06:51 am

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[It's been a few days since dying, and Luz had unfortunately kept this to herself. If you haven't been able to tell, this girl has been having a pretty rough month, and it didn't seem to be getting better. She lurched her device to focus, and, though coughing, was looking directly into the camera].

So. Uh. Died. First time, ha ha, not a fun experience. Kinda looking for some company, here or just on this thing otherwise. I should probably be getting rest, yes, but staring up at the ceiling regretting stuff and hating yourself can only keep out the quiet for so long.

Also, been out of the loop a bit. Someone update me on things?


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sickandstressed1

Luz was pretty sure that she was going to get an earful from people in the house, but ESPECIALLY from Ahiru, who had very much not wanted her to go on the mission. Luz had thought she could handle it and had handled somewhat similar situations before. Now, though, since they'd talked about it before, Luz knew it looked even WORSE.

Add the whole mix of self-loathing for being too weak to avoid death and the ever-present gloom of missing Fern and Varian, and Luz was pretty much a powder keg of emotions and blah. She was in her room right now, dimly lit with her purple lights and surrounded by a fort of stuffed animals and, well, Luz was a sight to see.
thisislife: (stealing police cars with the senior guy)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-05 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
No, I mean, I just have to wonder about the taste of people in your home world. But at least you found somewhere you could make friends. [and she flushes] Actually...no. My best friend, she's kind of been drifting away and paying more attention to her girlfriend than anyone else. Which, fair. And all of the other girls I know are my big sister's friends. So I'm kind of...not good at making friends, too. But my problem might be that I don't try hard enough.

[no way, just the right amount of spirited and enthusiastic]

Thank you. Really. I...I appreciate the faith in me. And him. And our lessons.

Hey, no, it's fine. I mean, I'm still here, right? If I minded the, you know, that I would have made some lame excuse and cut off the link.

[warmly] Yeah. This place is good for that.

[hint received! mostly!]
thisislife: (stolen images baby stolen images)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-06 04:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, I like it? If that helps? It's way more fun than pretending to be all jaded about everything.

I guess. I mean it, though, her girlfriend is really sweet. And, I suppose this is my change in scenery? So far, I like it--if only because I can my own house with my own room!

[no more sharing with Cassie, even if she did show up]

I...think I can do that? I've always kind of been someone who sat off to the sidelines and watched everything happen. Hence the username? But I'm trying to be better.

[warmly] Sure, it was the least I could do. I mean, I figure it had to have been traumatizing enough and since we don't have any actual psychologists to help with PTSD, we've got to do our best ourselves.

And I feel the same way about you. And you're really great, too! [she says enthusiastically]
thisislife: (so put on mascara and your party dress)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-06 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Sure, it's my pleasure.

[it's actually a rather nice change of pace. Maddy back home had a lot of energy, but it was usually angry energy. Luz's is far better]

Yeah. I'm doing my best to try and get settled in. It sort of serves a kick in the shorts when I see so many people younger than us doing just fine, you know? And I love having my own place. I can have miso ramen every day for dinner if that's what I want.

I think that would work. But...even despite. Everything. You shouldn't have to feel like you have to pull back. Take a break from everything for a while, sure, but not full scale pulling back.

And if I was overwhelmed, it was because of the death thing. Not the overwhelming. That part was fine.

I'd love to! That sounds like a lot of fun! Thank you! [Lexi always sounds at least a little amazed when people like her]
thisislife: (stealing police cars with the senior guy)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-07 05:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[same here! she'd never fallen into conversation so easily with anyone from home]

Yeah. And I'm just sixteen, so in theory there were two more years before I was off to college. A college far, far away from East Highland. I'm thinking Harvard far away. And it's great. I'm already used to doing the cleaning and laundry, so doing it here's no big deal.

[she grins] Good. I'm glad to hear that. All of it.

Or at least reckless within reason. Which might be an oxymoron, I'm not entirely sure? But, yeah, loads of time to recover.

Nice. I'll have to come over sometime soon? I'll bring baked goods. Of some kind. I still can't find a canister of baking powder.
thisislife: (than my favourite sweater)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-07 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[it was much easier to find and make friends in Trench. Lexi honestly couldn't remember ever having as many friends as she did here]

Yeah, sure am! [and Lexi winces slightly] Well...I've heard that time kind of stops in our worlds? At least that's a rumor. So maybe you can go back and start making college plans then?

Probably. That's the good and bad thing about having a roommate, there's someone to go home to. And on the flip side, someone to worry about when they aren't home.

R&R! Which according to old pamphlets I've seen in what used to be home ec, going somewhere to ski. Or going somewhere to surf. None of them ever recommended curling up with a good book and a hedgehog.

Oh. Really? [a pause] Sure! And I figure maybe a movie night? Or I bring over some of my personal stash of graphic novels to share?

Yeah, I kind of had to do most of the cooking back home. Mom could manage salads, but that was about it.
thisislife: (that's the way the road dogs do it light)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-08 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[Lexi would love to hear about where Luz had been previously. the idea of going to not just one world which wasn't her own but two was fascinating]

Ack. No. No way do I want to be a squid forever. It's kind of horrifying.

[nope nope nope, she needed to go home, not be trapped as a squid forever]

Oh, no! That's awful! This place seriously needs a school, like an actual school with grades along with the School of Mutter. That way, people like us could keep current with our grades. You should be a Junior by now!

Yeah? Then they should be in high school, too. Even it's like the one piece of normalcy with all of the chaos.

[she still wondered what those who had been in the dream had endured, but was too nervous to ask]

Exactly! When I think of rest, I don't think of going face first into the snow or the ocean because I'm a klutz. And he's not just any hedgehog, he's my Omen. His name is Orville.

[and at that, Orville makes his way into view, giving a hedgehog smile]

I'd love that. I'm...my schedule is pretty much wide open, so whenever's best for you! And yes. They have Rifftrax Live recordings on the Omni, "Birdemic" has to be seen to be believed if you haven't already watched it.

Yeah, well, when dad was here, he did most of the cooking. And that's not an option anymore, so I kind of stepped in.

[Suze Howard was almost never without a bottle of wine nearby]
thisislife: (they'll tell me that you're mine)

[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-08 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
[she'd be so embarrassed going through someone else's mindscape. and so apologetic as soon as she got out. "I'm not even supposed to be able to do that!," etc.]

Yeah. Okay. Totally deleting that idea from my brain. Or at least my conscious brain, I'm sure my subconsciousness will spring some kind of crazy on me when I least expect it.

It's hard for me to imagine being so busy that school wouldn't be in there as. A thing. Like an "I'm supposed to be in Statistics right now, why is this happening?" Which is an actual thought I've had. I don't even like Statistics.

[at this point, she'd take most of it in stride. the only thing which might weird her out is the alien tech.

she trusts Luz]

Yeah, relaxing is being on the beach with a big umbrella for shade and a steady supply of La Croix. And a stack of books. And he is! [to Orville] Say hi to Luz, Orville! We've just met, but she's really cool. [and Orville gives another hedgehog smile and peeps out hi, Luz!] Isn't that amazing? He just started talking on his own.

[hedgehogs are effing adorable. and Orville would probably allow it as long as Lexi was in eyeshot]

It will be! I swear, that movie has the worst special effects of anything I've ever seen. Even 1950s horror movies have better special effects! And there aren't any characters, it's like Standard White Guy #1 and Standard White Woman #2 and of course they're a couple.

Yeah. Lucky for me, no one has any food allergies. [a pause] Well, other than Cassie refusing to eat gluten 'cause she's convinced it's the devil.
thisislife: (their heavy words can't bring me down)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-09 05:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[maybe, but Lexi would still be mortified. even if it was a city-wide thing that no one could avoid, she'd be like "jajf;a;alkjlsf, noooooooooo!"

warmly] Yeah, there are. Honestly? I...kinda like it here. The people are so much easier to like than the ones back home.

[that's good, at least. that coming to a place like this wasn't that strange. she's trying to look at herself as a character in a shoujo manga, given the fact that everyone's attractive]

It's like the only non-alcoholic stuff mom drinks, so we always have a twelve-pack in the fridge. I either had to develop a taste for it or use what little money I have to buy Dr. Pepper Cream Soda. But I've never had coconut water, does it taste like coconuts? And shade is a very good thing.

He likes you! Don't you, Orville. [and he says yes, I like it when you talk to Luz!" cue blushing from Lexi]

[usually when Lexi was out and about, Orville would ride on her shoulder, her usually holding a hand up to make sure he kept steady]

Is it like a mom glare? Nothing's scarier than a mom glare. I don't know about you, but I find myself apologizing for everything from the Lincoln assassination up.

Yes! Yes! It's going to be so much fun!

Glad you mentioned that. Does this place have oat milk and is that one okay for you?
thisislife: (through the years)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-09 11:41 pm (UTC)(link)
[she'd learn to deal with it. honestly, she'd rather deal with the weird that this place kicked up (so far, at least) than deal with East Highland stupid]

Yeah. It's hard not to get attached. [not sure why she's blushing, but there we are] But as long as those of us who are here are there for each other, it has to help. Right?

[it happens. doesn't it?

Lexi was much the same way. she was interested in who people were, not what people looked like. but Luz was decidedly cute in a tomboy way]

Thanks. The most I can tolerate is a glass of wine now and then. Hard liquor makes me focus on the bad stuff and I do enough of that already. And I'll keep that in mind, though does this place get coconut water?

[Lexi beams back, ducking her head slightly] Yeah. Orville's a smart one. And he knows it, too. But yeah, I can't remember the last time I bonded with someone so fast. Pre-school, maybe?

[Orville preened and continued to hedgehog smile. only now it was more of a Mona Lisa smile]

Oh, yeah. Not to be attempted by mere amateurs. Don't get me wrong, mom's pretty easy-going. Actually very easy-going. But when she wants to play the mom card, she's great at it.

I'm already looking forward to it.

Great! Maybe I should switch to that, anyway. Dairy farms are pretty rough on the mama cows, at least that's what I've heard.
thisislife: (we were two kids just trying to get out)

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[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-10 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[an adventure was one way of putting it. the other would be as one extended LARP where you couldn't find out who the dungeonmaster was or actually access your character's stat sheets]

Yeah, so...there we are, I guess? [but if pressed, she'd go into greater detail]

You're...not like anyone I've known before. In a good way.

[and Lexi would likely die of blushing, should Luz describe her in that way. but, that shouldn't let that stop her...?]

No, no, not from a box. Mom always had the good taste enough to buy the good wine a the grocery store. Or the liquor store. Or--honestly, I have no idea where she got most of her wine. It was always there, you know?

[and Lexi would have thought of Luz as cute and sweet and caring with the prettiest hair---the bob really suited her and her hair seemed so well taken care of]

You do realize there are so many jokes I could make about oral fixations. [she says, giggling.

eehhh, probably the same reason why Lexi mentioned a crush from pre-school back home. stuff like that was formative]

He really does, doesn't he. [she turns to Orville and asks] What do you think of that? He ripped off that expression from me!

La chancla? I'm sorry, I took French so far. Always thought I could fit in Spanish my last two years of high school.

then that makes both of us. [she says, while smiling shyly]

Yeah, I'm part of the Young Democrats club at my high school, we covered factory farms in one of our meetings and it was horrible. And scarring for life. Trust me.
thisislife: (wind in my hair hand on the back of my)

[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-11 10:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[it seemed like there was little way of getting around this particular campaign]

Well. Yes. It's just...back home, I always felt kind of outside of things. But I don't feel that way here.

Third. Damn. [a pause] Is third time the charm? Other than the whole, you know. Death thing.

[Lexi never was the sort of person to say things she didn't mean. she was used to keeping silent most of the time, though, since the girls she hung out with back home were so...out there. louder, cooler, way more experienced. she never really felt comfortable speaking out, even when it was something nice.

but she felt comfortable with Luz already, like they'd known each other for years and were getting caught up with each other. and that feeling was wonderful]

Mom never went that far, but a good amount of our grocery money went towards wine.

[ack, no vanishing allowed! unless she was allowed to vanish, too, so she could also cover up what a blushing mess she'd be]

Sorry! Sorry! I'll be quiet!

[she said, giggling like crazy. but she had no intentions of being quiet with Luz, she loved talking to the other girl already. and Lexi would have no idea how people would overlook Luz, too]

He sure did! And it's hard to not feel a little proud, since he's a part of me. Damn right I am!, said Orville, preening a little.

Ohmigod! That sounds terrifying! How is it that no matter how old and mature we get, our moms can scare the crap out of us with an unholy household slipper?

Yeah, you need your rest. There's plenty of time to meet up in person when you're feeling better.

[and she was blushing like crazy]

Same here. Cows have enough to deal with.
thisislife: (well shit at least you tried)

[personal profile] thisislife 2022-06-13 04:10 pm (UTC)(link)
It's...strangely liberating. Being accountable to me and me alone. Don't get me wrong, I miss people from home, but I'd kind of rather they came here? Even as weird as things can get.

That actually sounds kinda spooky. Like something from a scary movie.

[and nobody had really paid attention to Lexi, she seemed to vanish into the walls most of the time, even when she didn't want to.

same thing Lexi feels about Luz with a side of 1) new BFF and 2) cute! but trying to stay focused on 1]

You absolutely can have a good time without wine. And to be honest, I was usually the designated driver when we'd carpool over to parties. At least ones we couldn't bike to.

[that sounded like a plan! even though holding their breath would be tricky.

and that makes her grin] Okay, okay. You have no idea what you've unleashed, though!

[no way would Lexi get sick of seeing Luz, they had too much in common and she already felt like she'd known Luz for years]

He's absolutely precious. Right? The only answer is right.

Ehhh, so am I. Technically back home I could join the National Honor Society, but I've never been much of a joiner. If I was, though...that would be goodie goodie central.

[which was true. and another thing they had in common, which was really nice]

I know, right? Like some belle of the ball who needs smelling salts every five minutes!

[and she's teasing back!]

And they make almond milk already taste like vanilla or chocolate, that's a bonus!

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