Deer Country Network

Firstly, I wish to express my immense gratitude to those who came to my aid and advised me last month. I realize naturally in retrospect that it was much a matter outside of my control. I do not speak to relieve myself of the burden of what happened; I still very much hold myself accountable, but objectively speaking there was little I could do and undo.

So it is better to move forward.

Secondly. There is not much in the way of constructive skill that I can offer to my fellow Sleepers. However, there is at least one thing I've much experience in, and it is with my... affliction, shall we say. It is one that I have had for decades, plus years left unaccounted for.

And so it is that I wish to offer my experience to those in a similar matter as myself. I have methods to keep myself calm and clear of mind despite my worse instincts, whatever wretched impulses rack my body and mind. The fiend within will never be tamed, but our willpower is much more significant than you might expect. Should you need my aid in this regard, it is yours. Contact me whenever you have need.

...Ah. Yes. A third thing.

( locked from ahiru )

[Maul looks as serious as he's ever been and at first he doesn't seem like he wants to speak. It takes Venge giving him a very hard headbutt to give him the impetus to start talking. There's a pensive quality to his voice like he's been practicing what he wants to say in his head but still isn't sure if he's gotten it quite right yet.]

I was in Deerington for over a year and a half. Including the time here in Trench, that is now over two years spent away from my home galaxy. That can change a person no matter how resistant one is to it. Some of you have been right. I have been acting like an unrepentant monster. [Which might be one of the hardest things for Maul to ever admit publicly. Everyone here knows getting him to admit when he's wrong is like pulling teeth.] But I've had a great deal of time to think and have come to the conclusion that I don't want to be that anymore. It is not a decision I make lightly or one that I was forced into by anyone. I think that has been the crux of why I have been faltering in my attempts. No one can make me become a better person. That has to come from within. So I'm going to prove the ones that have stuck by me right and show their eternal faith in me has been warranted. I never would have even gotten this far or come to this decision without them. To that end, I am making you all an offer which will be good from now until this city collapses into dust like Deerington did.

I swear by everyone here I told dear-- [And that's how one can tell he's dead serious about this. Maul would never make a vow he doesn't fully intend to keep.] --I will protect almost any and all of you against any monster that ever threatens your life. No questions asked, I will simply be there to defend you from danger. Just contact me and ask. It is that simple. All I seem to be good for is death and destruction, so I am going to channel that in a positive manner. There are a few exceptions to this, of course, but I'm sure you already know who you are. I'm making a change for the better but I'm not a saint and I do hold grudges. This doesn't apply to any conflicts that involve other Sleepers. I'm not getting involved in your petty squabbles. But anything inhuman which threatens your life will be dealt with in a swift manner, of that you can be assured.

[He goes to turn off his Omni when he adds on almost as an afterthought.]

Oh, and my offer to use my powers to get you to sleep or pull corruption out of your mind also still stand.

[Maul pauses and thinks of adding on something more but he's afraid he might dig himself into a hole he can't get out of if he does so. Instead, the Sith Lord just ends the feed a bit abruptly right there.]