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[Johnny's letters have put her in a melancholy mood, wondering about paths taken and those refused outright. wondering what she could have done differently, better. even before she came here.

would Cal have been so cruel if she had opened her heart to him as he requested? or would it have made matters worse for everyone, her having to split her affections? in such a competition, only one could win, even if it wasn't herself.

but she would have accepted it if it had meant that Jack and Cal could have come to terms, even if it were over her corpse? yes. yes, she would've]

I assume we all have our...regrets. Things we wish we could have done differently, solutions we did not see in the heat of the moment. How do you all cope with those regrets or do they haunt you, still?

You needn't identify yourself. Such confessions almost demand anonymity and will hold no sense of judgement on my part. It's not for me to confirm or condemn for in the end, we're all answerable to ourselves.

It's been a year
A full solar cycle...and the blood river is back
That means other things may come back too
The moving buildings the zealots
I dont know how many of us are still here that remember...but i think its important to share what we learned so everyone else can be safe

So much here tries to hurt you with your past even if you dont really need any help getting beat down by it
There may be ghosts or creatures that try to drag you down with them
But you can shake free of them if you have the help
So always ask for help OK?

We go forward whether we want to or not after all

CONTENT WARNING: psychological changes, hoarding, and obsessive behavior related to lavish desires

[ this video opens up with the blink of two eyes and a disgruntled chitter. perle is filming falco and focusing on . . . quite a mess of books in various assortments, stacked upon each other until they were in danger of tilting. among the open spines on the floors pinned with bookmarks were scrolls of paintings, sketches, statues, sepia photography— anything resembling a loving relationship, falco has seemed to have snatched it and keeps it all hostage in his little cabin home's attic like a greedy little dragon buried in precious, hoarded gold. he's pacing left, right, and has been caught mid-explanation as he works a red thread between his fingers. ]

( he rambles and an omen goes ham )

[ A tawny, aquiline man in a white hood stares at the device which has just clattered to the ground. His brown eyes have widened under dark furrowed brows, frowning apprehensively. He remains very still, as if staring at an agitated snake.

Eventually, curiosity shades into an intrepid hunger glinting in his eyes from beneath the shadow of his hood. He would like to know what secrets this device holds. He reaches forward with one calloused hand-- ]

➤ 1. ᴄᴏɴғᴇssɪᴏɴs
cw for: mentions of war crimes & impending child death.
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➤ 2. sᴄʀᴇᴀᴍ
cw for: war imagery, violence, gore, cannibalism, child “death”, forced transformation, burning to death
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➤ 2.1. ʜᴜɴɢᴇʀ
cw for: war imagery, cannibalism, gore, restraining of a child. in the clip there are child soldiers using firearms and a beheading.
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